How do I find peace in all of this?

Definitely contact the VA or your nearest VFW or American Legion. The will send someone to visit him. He made the right choice, because crossing state lines messes up the insurance coverage. Medicaid stops. Private insurance stops. He is in the right place.

lostgagurl - Contact the airlines and ask for a hardship flight. You will have to speak with their customer relations who deal in medical issues. I am sure they can get you home before your father dies. My best wishes to you (from the wife an ex-pilot of an airline who did this regularly).

Contact the VA in the area and ask if someone couldn't "step into" your role, and in exchange, call your local VA and ask if there's anyone on their watch there locally who might need a friend in their hour of need. If I had the programming knowledge, I'd start a parent swap website. You certainly are not alone in this since children are spread throughout the country, heck, the world for that matter there are to many seniors everywhere either alone, or putting all the pressure on one child while the rest of the siblings are out of state and can't be of help.

There's certainly a big need here. Someone should take this idea to the Shark Tank! You can start the ball rolling for your Dad at least. Visit your local VA, explain the situation you're in, ask if you can help and in exchange maybe someone there can contact the VA where your dad is on your behalf and get someone there to help your dad. What do you have to lose? Helping someone here who needs you will certainly make you feel batter and visa versa for the person who helps your dad. You could even swap phone numbers with your dad's "surrogate" so perhaps you two could talk about your dad, tell him some of your better stories so he/she will know something about them. If you end up helping someone here, you could contact their children to find out more about their dad/mom. What a wonderful idea this would be to get going around the world.... I can make websites, but can't do the script programming that would allow folks to sign up themselves and their parents for the swap. Hey, Aging Care...this may very well be a wonderful thing you could get this started????? I'll be the first to sign up. My brother and sister-in-law in Texas could use a stand in for me to watch my dad once in awhile so they can take a date night, and I, in turn can help out someone here where I live.

In the meantime, though, lostgaggurl, there is the the VA to get the ball rolling...I'd give your local chapter a visit or a call today. Sounds like time is of the essence for you and your father. At least you'll be doing something pro active! Best to you!

Many churches have "discretionary funds" available for the minister to use as he or she feels necessary. Tell your minister or rabbi or even your close friends about your dilemma. I'd even suggest that you borrow money (and sign a loan note) so you can see your dad while he's alive. You won't regret it and it will be money well spent. Check with a travel agent or airline rep to see if there are special fares for situations such as yours. Be prepared to show documents that prove your dad is in hospice care and is terminal.

Lostagurl~ Losing a beloved parent is so hard. One: his cancer and that he is going to pass away is NOT your fault. While in a sound mind he chose to stay where he was, so that you are not physically present is also NOT your fault. Making yourself sick with anxiety is not helping anybody. Talk to your own doctor and pastor, too. Great advice to contact the VA, get hospice going if not already, check with the local faith group he belongs to if he did to see about visitors. Somebody (you?) might want to ask him about his affairs being in order...a will, a durable power of attorney, a POLST (polst.org), and funeral homes sometimes offer nice brochures to help with planning his service. On a more simple note, sometimes sending photographs or a card might brighten his day. Please don't beat yourself up...OK?

I'll try to offer a bit of a different viewpoint.

He probably knows he's dying, doesn't want to change domiciles, and wants to be comforted by what he's used to and comfortable with. So getting him to move is likely out of the question. My father feels the same way - he wants to stay in his home, regardless of what happens.

I don't recall the specific programs but I do recall seeing signs up at our local VA about programs to help a veteran remain at home. As others suggest, contact them, find out what help they can offer and implement it.

I also vaguely recall something about visiting teams but don't have the specifics, and any information is probably in my large pile of VA filing that needs to be addressed.

Service organizations can help as well; they may even have rotating visiting teams.

I like Partsmom's suggestions, especially about people who visit. WindyRidge, one of our posters here, visits hospice patients weekly.

I have some recollection about mercy flights; perhaps you could get assistance to fly back, especially toward the end. The VA might have information on this as well.

In the meantime, I would call regularly, send cards, and photos, and if you think he'll use it, arrange for Skype service so that you can communicate face to face. I've just learned of another service, apparently free, called TANGO. One of my relatives uses it to communicate with her family.

Check into the Ronald McDonald home arrangements; I believe that it used to provide reasonable or free housing for cancer patients in treatment at out-of-town facilities, but I haven't read recently on the extent of its scope.

Gilda's Club in his area of Florida may also have suggestions about other voluntary respite providers. It's a wonderful resource for anyone battling cancer.

I fully understand your concern and distress; I would want to be with any of my family in a time like this. But it's also important to respect your father's wishes and recognize that moving would probably be too traumatic for him at this stage of his life.

Treat it as such, say what you want to say to him about how much he means to you, how he's influenced your life, and make the best of this time by finding a way to accept, and know that you're accommodating, his wishes.

To lostgagurl, sorry for what you're going through. Feel at peace it's not his fault for not wanting to move, nor your fault for living in OK. Do what you can and be creative to get there if you can. An airline may really help if you ask. Also, Spirit and Frontier can be ridiculously cheap, especially last minute. Gas is at a low. Maybe drive to an airport you usually wouldn't think of. My bro drove from KS to FL many times. If you just can't make it though, maybe a volunteer on his end can set up a phone call or video for you? Some SFAs and VAs have volunteer visitors. Try a church in his area, sven uf he disnt go to it. Meals on Wheels or Catholic Charities are also often connected with volunteers looking to help out. Care dot com is another option. Look in his area and you can maybe/probably find someone just to sit with him/help make a phone call to you for a minimal cost vs. getting there. Thoughts are with you and your dad and family.

I wasn't sure how to update but I wanted to Thank Everyone for their advice and kind words. My Dad passed away Sunday nite it was a shock to me and the nurses I was able to talk to him Sunday during the day and told him I was coming you see I was able to get a hardship flight that was on Monday morning Iam going to be ok because I knew he knew I was coming to be with him but the LORD took him on home so now we plan the funeral.Iam just so glad I was able to tell him how much I loved him and I was going to be there.

Thank you. My thoughts really were with you today. I imagine knowing you were on the way brought him comfort, and I hope it brings you similar comfort and peace to know you had done all you reasonably could, including asking a bunch of strangers. Caring strangers. But just the same. You're clearly resourceful and loving to your dad and to all of us. Take care. Hugs.

To 126Cher's post, yes "Medigap" insurances must also be changed if permanently moving out of state (vs. say a vacation). For example Blue Cross of Illinois is entirely different than Blue Cross of California. It's because Medicare is state vs. federally administered. Plan costs and coverage can really vary by state. We did it without too much fuss (two phone calls and some online comparing policies). We got something similar, but in our case at a bit higher price. I forget the time window you have, but your policy holder can tell you (that was the first phone call). A change of residency is an exception to the once/year open enrollment period, so don't worry about trying to move within that window.