My mother has been diagnosed w/early Alzheimers. Sometimes she seems fine mentally, then a day later will become confused, frightened, and cry. My sis and I have been helping her to stay at home; but we are worried constantly. Sometimes I spend the nights w/her. She doesn't want to move in w/me. I am married and don't want to move in w/her. That makes me so sad and guilty. Here it is almost 4 a.m. and I can not shut my eyes.
She has always said that when it was time to go to Assisted Living, she would know. Now she says it's time. We are looking at places; but I'm having a very hard time. Very hard. Unfortunately, I already suffer from depression and anxiety, have for 30 yrs. I feel no good to her or anyone else. But I sit here now crying because I don't want to put her somewhere where she knows no one or even the stuff, furniture, etc.