I have been a 24/7 caregiver for my mother for 2 years now. Because of her increased almost constant anger and combativeness my family and I have decided to start looking for a memory care NH for her. Every time I approach the NH situation I can't breath or I break down crying. I have not worked since I moved here to take care of mom, I have no doctor or insurance. I promised my dad before he passed to take care of her and deep down inside I know I'm doing the right thing but I can't shake this anxiety.
My mom really isn't that bad in her abilities to do things but she is always packing to leave, calling people 20 times a day to come get her and getting mad because they won't. She takes off out of the house and I constantly have to be watching to follow her to make sure she is safe. Then when she starts feeling trapped with no way out she starts hitting and kicking because I am following her. I can't leave her outside in the streets because she walks into traffic, But when she gets mad at home I retreat to my room and let her be. Her increased dementia has made her an unloving person compared to the every time you saw her she gave you a hug. She will not let anyone hug her anymore.
Kinda off subject :/ Anyways..... Anxiety Anxiety Anxiety How do I shake this .... Needed to vent !!!