Hi everyone! To give you a little background, I have been caring for my mom part time for eight years. Full Time the last year and a half. She lives with me in my home along with my husband and two young children. (Four adorable kitty's too!) Anyway, my moms most recent surgery was November 18th which then took her to a rehab hospital until I could care for her. She has a discharge date of this Sunday. I love my mom, but I feel like (God help me) I am being sentenced! Every night when my husband and kids are asleep, I turn off the lights and just sit in the dark. Not becausee I am depressed, but because I crave the silence. I feel like there is no end here, but at the same time I ask myself what I can and cannot live with or accept. I can't place her someplace that is subsidzed by something else (I can't live with that!) however, her looming discharge weighs so heavily on me. I feel so selfish and the memory of my deceased dad is just doing circles around my head. You know, the love and protect at all costs! Anyone help me get perspective!!!!!!!!!