I am currently watching my 93 year old mother slowly slip closer to dying. She wants to die. She hasn't eaten for 3 weeks, but has taken some liquids with pills. Her speech is basically not understandable and she often exhibits mental anguish and restlessness. Pain level is under control. However, today she seemed improved, even asking for oatmeal (only taking 2 or 3 bites). When the aides told me how good her morning was, my initial reaction was "oh no, her death will take longer" and I felt instant guilt for that thought. I don't want her to linger in the condition she is in. Am I a bad person for these feelings?