Its been 5 months since my dad passed away. But I still feel horribly guilty about his death. Almost three years after his stroke, he died in hospital. I feel responsible for his death. I feel like I killed him. I lived at home with him and was in charge of all his care. His meds, his doctor appointments, his food, his daily care, paying all the bills, maintaining the house. I tried to be the hero and do it all. The last year of his life was the toughest, he was getting angry, no pills, no to food, no showers. I just gave up and didn't even tell the doctor about these changes. I thought I would let him be and just make him comfortable. But it was horrible mistake, his heart gave out on him and he had a series of heart attacks. I realize I did not manage his care as well as I should have otherwise he would still be alive. My siblings don't blame me and even tell me I did the best I could. But in my heart I don't believe it. And I don't know if I will ever forgive myself.