My mother is a 75 year old ill woman who is practically unable to walk any longer due to her illness (COPD, Emphysema, Asthma). Its bad.
She was an absolutely awesome mother to me in my childhood. She made mistakes like everyone, myself included. Looking at the big picture she did well and I was brought up correctly. When she became ill some fifteen years ago, she started changing.
We are now at the point where I try to see her twice a week so that I can make sure that I have no regrets like with my father. I was in my twenties and regretted not spending more time with him when he was at the end of his time due to Cancer. It still bothers me.
I cannot even be in the same room as her any more. We end up arguing from sentence one. She is ultra defensive at all times. Today I said that the carpet needs a clean and she took it as me accusing her of being a dirty person. Which then turned into "the carpets are stained and cannot be washed", which is some sort of excuse strategy she has been employing. Often some made up thing in her mind that she believes in the moment. Another example is that I go to her home only to wash my clothes. I am a 37 year old man who has lived by himself for many years, and I have my stuff (imagine). I don't rely on her for any funds or anything really for over a decade. I only go to her home to actually see how she is doing and spend time with her.
I do suspect some sort of geriatric issue with her. Perhaps the lack of oxygen all these years has sped this up.
All I want to do is exist with her in a room, have a conversation that isn't making both of us depressed, and somewhat improve my our relationship before she is gone.
I am all ears people.
Greetings from South Africa.
It sounds like your mother is having cognitive issues. Never argue with someone who has cognitive issues, because they no longer have the capacity to reason or have deep meaningful conversations.
If she starts being unpleasant, end the visit or phone call. Stop rewarding bad behavior. Stop subjecting yourself to mental torture.
Say something like "Mom, I'm sorry you're not feeling well. I'll check in with you later. Bye - I love you."
Ask her doctor to prescribe an anti-depressant. It helped my mom immensely.
When you visit, try rephrasing things into questions so she feels like she's the one making decisions: "Mom, do you need any help with upkeep? I can find services to help keep your apartment clean so that you can enjoy it." And then accept if she says no and move on.
My 96-year old Mother lives next door to me and has moderate dementia. When I go there I always try to bring something to give her: her favorite fruit, dessert, newsletter. My husband has a trick where, if she starts going down a negative or paranoid path, he starts showing her pictures of cute animals or funny pratfalls by people. If I'm there by myself and can't turn around her Bad Mood ship I pretend I'm getting a phone call and run out the door. Often I will hang up on her if she is irrational. You can't pick your family members but you can pick your boundaries with them.
You aren't responsible for her happiness. When visiting, don't have any expectations for how it will go. Expectations are premeditated disappointments. Bless you for trying so hard but now you will need to come to peace with the reality of her present and future. It won't get better for her. You won't be able to make her happy. Do what you can accept but do not feel guilty for any outcome. Most people don't have consciencious children like you, so count her blessings for her. May you receive peace in your heart on this journey.
But don't hold your breath on that one, as her being pleasant days may sadly be over for her. And it's not your responsibility to make your mom happy or her days pleasant.
And if in fact you are doing your laundry at her house, find someplace else to do it, as it will be one less thing for her to complain about.
I wish you well in dealing with your mom and know that all things can not be fixed and often we just have to make the best out of things, best we can.
It's a brutal disease, usually from years of smoking. Don't expect your Mom to be cheerful and happy anymore. I think most all our Mothers seemed so amazing when we were young.
She's lost her husband, her health has gotten worse and she's in survival mode at this point. People with COPD don't live into their 80s. Anything you say is going to been taken or seen as criticism. She doesn't want to hear anything from someone so lucky to be in their 30s.
It sounds like Mom doesn't want to socialize. You can't force a happy relationship with someone so obviously bitter about her current, terrible life, which is nearing the end.
I would limit visiting Mom. You could try to bring her some flowers, or some food she loves. Otherwise, keep it to quick phone calls. You can't make her happy, so stop trying.
Don't take it personal. Be glad she doesn't want you moving in, or for you to be caregiving. That doesn't mean you tolerate the abuse. In her situation, any conversation that gets ugly should be your cue to leave.
I wish I had better advice. My Mother was terrible at the end.