I haven't been sleeping very well. My mom pushed a button which calls to my phone upstairs & when I answered (kinda took me awhile to pick up-it was 2:30am) all I heard was heavy breathing. By the time I got downstairs she was not breathing, was on her back, staring upwards-I swear I will never forget this, it is branded in my brain. I called 911 & they told me to roll her on her side & push on her chest-she started gasping & then thank god 2 policemen came & gave her more oxygen(she's on oxygen 24 hours a day) Finally the paramedics came as I begged & pleaded with her to go to the hospital which she had been refusing. I feel so alone-although having 3 other siblings, but they all hate mom, except for me. After this incident I feel wierd, empty, alone, scared, etc. I don't know what to do. I don't want to lose her & I don't want to find her like that again. She has congestive heart failure, out of control diabetes, sleep apnea & a whole lot of other health issues. She has yet to wear & get used to a bi-pap machine. She sleeps all the time-I'm exhausted yet this week-monday, I need to make a doc appt for her & she has occupational therapy & some other therapy, tuesday the oxygen people are coming to see about mom getting used to bi-pap machine, wednesday I have to go & get her diabetes test strips, Friday, her nurse is coming to check on her & then afterward I go shopping. How much can a person take?