I'm 22 and I'm taking care of my dad alone who just suffered a second severe heart attack(had 2 within just one year) in February. He's still in the hospital and not expecting to be home for a couple more months. My mom recently passed away from brain cancer where I was her caregiver as well for a year so I just feel completely devastated that all this is happening. I feel so guilty to think this way...but lately I feel like I've just been robbed of my life. I had to drop out of college awhile ago to take care of my mom and dropped out again to take care of my dad by working full time at a job I'm not so fond of and not where I want to end. I want to go back to college, but I have to take care of my bills and ridiculously expensive rent for my dad and I. He just also got fired and told he would not be able to work again. I just feel so miserable and numb right now and I feel guilty for feeling this way, but I want my life back so badly. I haven't lived since I was 18 before my mom got sick. I'm so scared I'm never going to be able to return to college and I'm just not going to get to do things I wanted to do at a young age. I feel like I'm a lot older than I really am. None of my family is helping. They just ignore me. It feels awful to be completely on my own. I pretty much destroyed all my relationships since I never had time to maintain them.