I am in therapy and working hard to hold on. I feel sad and displaced in this family as the scapegoat/caregiver. My dad is horrible to me. I try to please the narcissist but it won't ever work. I feel like I have run out of time for my own life and resigned to being hated and unloved. He really groomed his kids and wife to be his audience and turn on one another. It is terrible and yet I feel horrid for leaving and letting my mom be at the mercy of his nastiness. My siblings don't care nor help they just bash me and talk badly w my dad about me. I feel I have wasted my life and I am trying not to give up but I am incredibly broken and sad. I am trying but I wonder the point of it when I feel so beaten down with his awful mood swings and two faced behavior that has stripped me of family support. Been going on since I was born.