I'm planning a small church wedding with my fiance and stepsons. I started crying b/c I wasn't able to help my dad walk again. I moved 5 years ago to be closer and help my dad. I really tried i believe in my heart but my dad always wanted to do 50 other things instead of therapy. He says he does. I know on one hand i'm not a failure but on the other my heart feels like i failed. Our chuch is small and one level so my dad can get in with his wheelchair. I'm the only girl and oldest. I'll be moving when i get a job about 2 hours away. I will still come see my dad. I'm able to go out once a week now. I'm 35 and for the first time after helping raise my youngest brother with my mom and then moving to help my dad - now having my own life. I've been in therapy for 2 years and its helped alot. but i still have this sadness in my heart.