My mom had a fall about two months ago, and was hospitalized for a broken leg. After she was discharged, she went to rehab at a nursing facility. Even though the facility is nice, and the people are doing a good job, she hasn't done well enough with therapy to be able to continue. Because of this, she has had to stay in nursing care. Her mind has gone somewhat, and even though she doesn't have Alzheimers, she can't understand why she can't go home. She has a blank expression where a sparkly smile in her eyes used to be, and she has been crying and asking to come live with me. This is impossible because of my work, and my husband works long days as well. We have serious financial problems as well and we haven't the means to get in home care. I went through the process of getting Medicaid for my mom so we could keep her in the nursing home, but I received a letter yesterday saying we were going to have to pay an additional $745.00 per month that we don't have because of "increased income". I can't understand how this could be since all she has had are her Medicare check and a 56.00 retirement. I am at my wit's end between trying to be there for my mom, seeing my small business fail in this economy, wondering how I'm going to have the strength to fight Medicaid, and trying just to get over the fact that the mom I always knew is no longer here. I haven't felt any happiness in a long time, and I wonder if I ever will again. I wish I could talk to God and ask why we have to get old and fade from the person we always were in life to be a shell of a person in a broken sad body. I guess I will never understand this. I am just so, so sad.