It's a real battle to make myself go & I can't go by myself. He's spoiled me my entire life. I have cared for him the last 7 years till he got too weak for me to handle him. I told myself I would never put him away & cost is high & I know I've done what I said I'd never do yet I feel relief which causes me guilt. It makes me feel horrible that I had to put him in a home.