I go my mother-in-law's home 6 days a week, 10 hours a day. Her entire right leg was amputated, shes a cardiac patient, and is now incontinent. She is on no less than 12 meds a day. She has come back from a nursing home and needs 24/7 care. Shes only 52. I have been with her the past month now. Nurses and therapists come all week. They tell her and I what she SHOULD be doing, but when they leave she refuses to do the things that will help her. I have a very bad back and hip. Moving, lifting, and changing her diapers are killing me. Her fiancee works 6 days a week, leaving me with Sunday off. I have that one day to try to catch up with what did not get done in my house all week. I am the mother of two, and I never see my children. She will not allow anyone other than her fiancee and I to change her diapers. I am becoming resentful of my husband. I do not know how to explain to him that I simply cannot do this on my own anymore. I am spent physically, mentally, emotionally. I cry in the bathroom. Sometimes I wish something bad would happen to me so I couldn't take care of her anymore. I feel like I am dying inside. I do not see friends or family. I cannot leave the room she is in for long because she actively tries to get out of the bed on her own when I do. My children are suffering, I am suffering, my marriage is suffering, my house is suffering. I just cannot do it anymore. I want to pack myself and my kids up and just disappear. I cry as I write this. my husband and her fiancee will not put her in a home, and no one has offered to help me. Even if someone were to offer, she will not let anyone else change her. I cannot sleep because of my back pain, and when I do I have dreams that I wake up in bed next to my dead Mother-in-law. I am losing my mind.