For the last two years I have been waking up in the middle of the night with a horrible sensation. After these episodes some part of my personality dies and my intelligence goes down or I become more detached from people.
Newton, I use to get those "fear of dread" late at night and it was scary. It started when I first was helping my very elderly parents who still lived alone. I would get that feeling a couple times a week, and it went on for years.
Eventually once my parents passed, I don't have that weird feeling any more. Maybe because now I am able to sleep through the night, and part is because my primary doctor put me on meds to calm me down [I hate taking pills but wished now I would have done it years ago].
Talk therapy helps but you need to make appointments with more than one to find the right fit. Chances are an older therapist has gone through caring of a parents and can relate.
A physical sensation of pain, or a sensation of dread -- like you're seeing yourself in a car accident or something else terrible?
Agree with Barb that you need to see a pro asap because no stranger would be qualified to give a diagnosis via the Internet. If you want to talk more about these emotions/sensations, if you can describe them in more detail, someone might be able to point you in a general direction of what you're experiencing.
Do they happen every night? What do you mean by "part of personality dies?" You're more detached... does that mean you don't spend time with your friends and loved ones or does that mean that you "feel detached" emotionally? Give as many specific details as you can and I'll discuss with you, BUT YOU NEED TO MAKE AN APPOINTMENT TO SEE A DOCTOR ASAP and get professional assessment. :)
Eventually once my parents passed, I don't have that weird feeling any more. Maybe because now I am able to sleep through the night, and part is because my primary doctor put me on meds to calm me down [I hate taking pills but wished now I would have done it years ago].
Talk therapy helps but you need to make appointments with more than one to find the right fit. Chances are an older therapist has gone through caring of a parents and can relate.
Agree with Barb that you need to see a pro asap because no stranger would be qualified to give a diagnosis via the Internet. If you want to talk more about these emotions/sensations, if you can describe them in more detail, someone might be able to point you in a general direction of what you're experiencing.
Do they happen every night? What do you mean by "part of personality dies?" You're more detached... does that mean you don't spend time with your friends and loved ones or does that mean that you "feel detached" emotionally? Give as many specific details as you can and I'll discuss with you, BUT YOU NEED TO MAKE AN APPOINTMENT TO SEE A DOCTOR ASAP and get professional assessment. :)