My dad passed away in 7/27/2020 of Covid-19. He was admitted into hospital on 6/24 because a car accident, he had no injuries but was disoriented so he was admitted. He tested positive and never released. He got worse each day as he was kept in quarantine and not moved as in walked. He declined quickly and next thing I know he is being put on ventilator, I was able to face time with him before that. He was on ventilator for 3 days and then able to be stable on nasal oxygen. A couple of days later I’m being told he is not doing well and is needing too much oxygen to keep this routine going. I feel I was tricked into putting him in palliative care assuring me he would still be cared for but in fact he was just being left alone to die. On 7/25 when I was allowed to finally visit, he held my hand tightly and pulled himself up as to notion “let’s go”. I cried and prayed and talked and caressed his face. He tried talking to me but I was unable to make out his words. Two days later, he passed away.
I can’t help but think that if I would have insisted on more time for his lungs to heal he could have recovered. He had no underlying conditions, not over weight, his kidneys and heart were doing good. Why would they encourage me to let him go?!!!