Long rant, but I need to get this out. One brother is angry his ex wife was invited...Even though she's been coming to see Mom for 20 years, never missed a birthday or holiday, visited Mom numerous times in the hospital (brother didn't visit Mom most of the times she was in the hospital), etc. Brother sent a scathing text the night of Mom's funeral saying we chose his ex over him. Instead of discussing it with his ex he tried to put us siblings in the middle by texting us saying if she goes to the gathering after the funeral he wouldn't go. She came, he left.
I like his ex, she is the mother of his kids, Mom liked her. This brother and his 2nd wife came to see Mom sporadically, only a handful of times in the 10 years I was taking care of her. She had more visitors the last month of her life than she had for the past 10 years combined and that really burns me and breaks my heart. I responded to his text and apologized to my brother if my actions hurt him. I also told him he should have discussed the situation with his ex. But now just silence and hard feelings.
Another brother's long term girlfriend broke up with him just before Mom passed. Now I'm in the middle of their drama...she sent our family a condolence card and sent me a separate one with a lovely note inside and a gift card to my favorite plant nursery. I debated about telling my brother because I didn't want to hurt him, but was trying to be open and not hide anything from my brother in case he were to find out later and feel betrayed. So I told him...he was so upset. He said she did it for "show". I felt she was sincere. Now do I send it back to make him feel better, or graciously accept it and send a thank you to her? Then I'll have 2 brothers who think I betrayed them? This brother was mom's POA so he did help with Mom in that regard. He's really hurting, losing Mom and his relationship so close. I feel so bad for him.
When does the drama end? It's been 2 weeks. I visit my Mom's grave almost daily and that gives me some peace. I still live in her home. People just walk in like they did when Mom was alive...it irritates me a tiny bit but I get it and it's cool most of the time. But sometimes I just want to sit here in the dark, quiet, think, remember Mom, hug my dogs, cry and try to heal. I apparently keep on hurting my brothers somehow and I don't mean to. I have other siblings that just never come around. Part of me just wants to hide from everyone. I try not to be bitter that they didn't help with Mom's care for 10 years. But I'm becoming bitter now about being dragged into their drama and instead of saying a peaceful farewell to Mom the wake, funeral and gathering were full of hard feelings, drama and arguing. I did not want to remember it this way. Mom deserved better. I just want to mourn the loss of my Mom, my best friend, my rock. To begin to heal. And I want to do it in peace. Thanks for "listening". Peace and blessings to you all.