Its been 7 years of prison. I'm alone, I'm tired and I cant put her in a home. I'm done. Toast. Forget this 'caregiver' thing where I have to take care of myself- I cant! There isn't anyone to help me. She is not Nursing Home material. She is too ill with too many health issues including peg feeding. If I put her in a Home, she'll be dead in a few months with the kind of care they give. I have no relatives. Its me and only me. She is pretty much bedridden. I'm afraid to put her on Medicaid because what LITTLE money is in the bank is what we pay our bills with! I cant give that up to Community Medicaid! I am on disability too and don't bring in any money. I'm thinking of putting in an add in Craigslist for someone to live with me for free rent and pick up the slack here so I can put my head on my pillow. I'm now 62! This started when I was 53! I'm sad, depressed, and too tired to go OUT to get therapy, or see a doctor. I just want to got to bed when I have any down time. I don't know how to handle this.