I'm making myself sick. She got out of hospital last week. And I'm sitting here waiting for a visiting nurse to call. Feeling like it's my fault if she doesnt come today. I think i feel more responcibility for mom than i should. Between my husbands comments. He feels I should take care of mom and my own feelings. I sort of felt like i had to help her since i was in my late teens. I bought birthday cards for dad to sign from him to mom. And bought gifts for him to give her. Since he was not good at that sort of thing and birthdays were important to mom. I took over grosery shopping at 16. Mom couldnt drive. Dad worked long hours. I did the ironing.