In August I posted this question. Since then, I'm still having a very very hard time with my mom's death. I keep thinking about what i could have done or should have done for her, I miss her voice and her smile. I don't really let family members into my grief because I think they think I should certainly be over it after 6 months. I'm not and it's getting worse. Maybe the holidays, I don't know but I keep thinking that I would rather be with her then here. She understood everything about me and I feel like an orphan now with no one to talk about my past and childhood with. I have family, don't get me wrong and they are wonderful but it's not the same. I sincerely miss her so much and regret the times that I wrote how frustrated I was on here. I wish I knew then what what I would feel now. Hugs to all of you...you're a wonderful group to have!