I am young and have a family of my own, my father lives with us. Myself, husband, and two daughters. Recently we decided to add to our family and planned a pregnancy. My father is paralyzed from the neck down and I have been caring for him alone four years now with no help from my siblings. However, he has MS so he has been immobile for about 15 years now. We have all taken care of him as children into adulthood. My pregnancy went horrible. My water broke at 18 weeks. I ended up losing my son but was able to carry to 25 weeks with a ruptured amniotic sac. The entire time, father was horrible to me. I was ordered to be on bed rest and no longer lift him or change him. We hired an aide, and he complained about how i cook, although i was not cooking at this time. We make him drink green smoothies every morning, one day he refused and personally requested that I go to the store and buy him sausage and grits regardless of me leaking amniotic fluid every time I stood up, bring the food home and cook him breakfast. That was the last straw. He was actually happy that my baby died because my high risk pregnancy was an inconvenience to him. I have alot of anger towards him. During the time I needed him the most, he would glare at me, talk bad about me, not talk to me at all, and caused a considerable amount of stress on top of everything that was already going on. I am two months post partum and still healing. They did a vertical incision to get him out. I am now back caring for my dad daily with the help of my husband. He never tells us thank you, no gratitude, no reassurance, emotional support, nothing. I want to have more children, but I fear I can't as long as I am taking care of my dad. My father was able to have six kids, and I can only have two. I am living his life. the horrible eating habits and refusal for medical care for decades is now very evident due to his poor health. One time I tried to get him to acknowledge that him drinking Pepsi and eating honey buns religiously may have contributed to his nueropathy in both legs from mismanaged diabetes. He also has a nuerogenic bladder and prone to UTI's from diabetes and he refuses to consider he had any parts with his health deteriorating. However, I am now left to deal with the poor choices of his consequences, even if he is in denial. I've come to realize how incredibly selfish my father is. He raised us to be financially dependent on him and to be his personal slaves. My siblings now have relief. They could no longer care for him and started to neglect him. He was very abusive, controlling, and manipulative of them and in turn they also became abusers by taking his money and not having food in the house. That is why I have my dad now. They were burnt out and rightfully so. We have been dealing with cleaning him, urine, feces, necrotic wounds, etc since were we preteens. He actually forced us to go to nursing school just so we could properly learn how to care for him. I refused. My siblings accepted him paying for their college. My sister HATES nursing and hates that he forced her. I will never do this to my children I would die quietly and alone without then knowing I suffered.