I'm the fulltime (24/7) caregiver for my 91 year old Grandmother who has Alzheimer's, and a ton of other medical conditions. That's already a hard enough job as it is, and I just found out that my mother who is disabled with fibromyalgia is going to be staying with us temporarily. My Dad has been working a lot of overtime, to the point where he has only had 2 days off in a month. It's gotten to the point where he's making himself sick, and I feel horrible because I can't get a job. I need to take care of my Grandma and now mother.
August 2015 I had been hit my a car while riding my bike home. That really freaked me out, and since then I get really anxious being outside. Even just walking 5 minutes to the 7-11 is hard for me. I really hate it, because I can't do any of the stuff I want to do. Such as take my Grandma to the park. I get nightmares all the time and rarely sleep well, and I get flashbacks a lot. If there's a sudden sound, or even just a bright light I just start seeing the accident again. Now because of it, I'm stuck inside just about everyday, all day long.
I tried to contact hospice to come and help me with my Grandma, and take some of the stress off me and my father. But our insurance denied us and we can't afford out of pocket. My parents don't have any friends, and I only have 3 friends. The problem is 1 my mother hates with a passion, and I don't trust around my Grandma. 1 just had a baby, and the other has to work. So it's just me.
I know my family needs me on the top of my game, especially now. I don't know how I can keep doing this, when all I want to do is sit in the dark and cry. I feel like I'm living a nightmare everyday, and there's nothing I can do about it. Most of all, I just feel guilty because I can't do more to help out my family, and because of that I've become very depressed. I know I should be able to do more, I need to. I just don't know how.