I lost my Dad following leukaemia almost two years ago and my Mom was diagnosed with a similar type of leukaemia about a year before he died (well....they were a couple that did everything together!). His death was sudden and unexpected at the end, and threw us all into the depths of despair. Meanwhile my mom's leukaemia isn't curable but was stable due to new drugs and she's been trying hard to put her life back together, determined not to let things beat her. Over the last 12 months my relationship (4 years) broke down and I quit a job where I was bullied and stressed to where I was losing my hair and losing weight. Now I'm the unemployed, spinster daughter just north of 30! As a result I've been spending more time with my mom because I have a lot of time on my hands, where I'd previously been distancing myself a little because of how I felt my world collapsed when my dad died. And now there are some other issues with my mom's health which are being 'investigated' and my gut feeling is it's bad. I took her to the hospital for a CT following a couple of X-rays on Friday and we're waiting to hear back about what they've found. We know they've found something, it's just a case of what. If anyone was telling me this story I'd say 'hey don't worry, wait until you find out what it is' but it's hard to take your own advice when you're the one in the story. I feel like this is my breaking point and it's crushing me. I've been crying non-stop all weekend and my mom is in a bit of a daze (I don't cry in front of her btw). She makes jokes about being on the way out and my heart is breaking. I just don't know what to do - we're a small family with no supportive aunts/uncles etc. and although I have friends most haven't been through this with their parents yet so either keep their distance or just avoid talking about it. My rock during my dad's departure was my ex-boyfriend, and now I don't even have him to lean on. I have a sister but she lives away and we're not very close. I'm trying to remain positive and not let this crush me but at the same time my heart is just utterly broken thinking about what is ahead. I just had to write it down.