I am having a hard time with the loss of the elderly woman I was taking care of. Within a months time she went from just needing some guidance due to her barely being able to see or hear. She could do everything herself, it was like a babysitting job. She had an extremely fast decline in her health, she needed more and more assistance. I spent 3 nights a week 8 hour shifts with this woman taking care of her like my children or how I would take care of my own mother. I loved her family and they loved how good I was to her and how well she responded to me. I spent the last night of her life alone with her holding her hand listening to music my whole shift. The next day she was gone. I am beyond lost and confused about how I feel about everything I experienced in only a month but felt like a year.