Mom is so sad. It breaks my heart to see her cry. She is so disgusted that she is in such bad shape.
She can barely walk anymore. She has surgery scheduled for July 25th to unblock the first corrotid artery. Then 6 weeks later, the second will be done. She will be awake for the both procedures, and is stressed about that. She needs this surgery as she has had 2 strokes and a few TIAs.
She shakes and trembles very badly. She's very wiped out and everything is an exertion. She has COPD and still smokes. Her hands are so arthritic she can not light the lighter. What a joke. I can't fight with her about this anymore!
Her spirits have plummeted. She really just can't take it anymore. She was always on the go. I'm constantly giving her pep talks and even point out she's on the potty pot.
She does want to get better though. And isn't open to hospice.
She is always constipated and has stomach pains from it, she hardly eats because her stomach hurts.
She also has short term memory loss.
She also feels she's a burden on us and an intrusion in our home. Poppycock! We love having her!
On a good note the CBD oil has helped her severe leg pain. She would have constant pain plus shooting stabbing feelings. She'd break down because of it, and could never just relax. This oil, just a few drops under the tongue, has been a life saver!
I just don't know what to do about her depression. She is on Xanax, as needed, and Lexipro.
Where do I go from here? Even the smallest suggestion might help. Thanx for reading. I didn't know it would be this hard.