Raising 3 children, let alone making sure I have the finances. and caring for my spouse is tough..... I have to manage my spouses finances which is only social security and then raising 3 children and all the work entailed of houskeeping is
tough, I feel used up, I feel taken for granted and I feel like Im everyone's slave
and my dreams and concerns for myself are the last thing to consider. Im tired and I want to be considered and Im not. My children now are 17, 20 and 22 its about time they cleaned up after themselves and had chores and had a consciousenous mind to clean up after themselves and maybe make dinner while I take care of "DAD" and pursure our own endeavorments!! Im physically tired, I clean up after them all on top of caring for my spouse , I have a bad back and Im just tired!!! What do I do...I've tried to implicate a schedule but they still don't follow it...its ridiculous... I can comment that no one is willng to cook dinner so no one is gonna eat, but I get very pissed off that I have to say this and then everyone squanders for dinner, belive me they don't squander to bad there is alot of food in the friguator....I just would like if someone would take the responsibility so I don't have to worry about it........but no one plans.....they are all last minute and it drives me crazy... and when I get mad, which is obvious, but no one will take the time to speak to me. they just scatter and go slowly with the flow, which I mean, they hang out and make sure my spouse has something to drink or eat and then they watch tv, play computer or games and hang out, but by no means to they come to me in my room to talk to me. I have "Literally" stared at my bedroom wall for 3 to 5 hours awaiting for someone to come in and pay attention to me, but nobody comes, they wait till the endof the night at mavbe 10pm (this started at 10am) and ask how Im doing, ... which is bullshit to me... Tell me what and I suppose to do They are all (my family) dysfunckionaland I get screwed in the long run, Ive spoken to them about it and they just don't change............what Ive done recently which is tonite is that they have all my responsibilities or you could call them my "chores" and they are gonna walk in my shoes so to speak so that they can discern what is going on....I don't know how long it will take, but there gonna do it....... Its tough for me cause Im a giver, but Im going to care for my hubby, while they do everything else , which include balanceing my checking account, paying bills, buyng grocieres and planning and organizing their eduacation and then lets see..... why I have all the outrages I have.......they are gonna walk in my shoes and I hope that they will figure that all 3 of them can't do my job, Im a one women show, and they are 3.........I hope God will show them, why Im so stressed. I will tell you Ive been in a place where I just want to commit sucide and just get it over with, I fell like Im a slave to my family "literally" . their actions when I share my feelings is like they don't care..........is ridiculous, I know they can grow but come on..if im ready to take my life they shud be more serious that i fell this way and they don't.