I had to set up new account due to passwords not matching up. Previous screen name was Diannekk. Anyhow, no one will probably remember me because I haven't posted or replied in forever. No time. Not for myself or a support forum. Just at wits end. Caring for 68 yo mom with lung disease. She has been hospitalized 3 times this year for lung infections. Plus has fell a few times. Its one thing after another & I'm going to be honest. I feel done with the situation. Just done. I've fell into a deep depression, which I'm working through with help from zoloft but all I want is MY life back. I'd love to have a break also. No vacay in 4 yrs now due to her health. I just wonder if it ever gets easier. I won't be able to tolerate this deal much longer & I feel zero guilt for approaching the time to place her in a SNF. I tried to get hospital to send her to rehab last time but they were zero help. If and when she falls again is when she will go to rehab and I plan to do placement at that time. I have given my life up and I'm ready to reclaim it. Any thoughts tips or advice? A person knows how much they can personally withstand and I am there. I want to be a daughter again and still caregive from distance but my whole life on hold is ridiculous. My mother didn't do this. Why am I in a neverending situation?