How has caregiving affected your future decisions?

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I have learned so much on this journey... some good, some bad. I'm in a really crabby mood today and can 't focus at work, so it's my hope that typing all this will help me feel better.


1) PREPARE! PREPARE! PREPARE!!


As much as I disagree with it, modern medicine has made it possible for people to live WAY past what should be deemed as a quality life expectancy. Facilities and doctors' pockets are now lined with money made from increased medical bills and care-related costs of aging.


My Dad most likely didn't expect to ever get to his age and made poor financial decisions as a result. I'm sure he never expected the money that he squandered all of his life in a savings account (I cringe as I type that) to dwindle so quickly because his basic care expenses exceed $5K a month.


I am now exploring Long Term Care Insurance options and thinking of how I want to spend my latter years and what I can do now to make sure I have the money to cover it.


I am also (JUST FOR ME) looking into places where I could go if I decided I didn't WANT to burden someone with even worrying about my Long Term Care in the event that I got to a point where I was merely existing in a sick shell, medicating myself daily until a truly miserable end.


2) NO KIDS!


I had been on the fence about this one for some time and once caregiving put such a dent in my dating life and as I get closer to 40, it's not an option for me. Why?


Because I know what it feels like to have an older parent. At 39 with an 87-year-old father, I wouldn't wish my plight on anyone. I wouldn't want my kids to experience the emotions I have towards me (resentment, guilt, anger, fear) just by being essentially forced into caregiving at such a young age.


Also, because Dad has been legally blind all of his life. I've literally cared for him and his many women (most of which he beat up) all my life. I don't want the burden of having to worry about anyone else other than myself at some point in my life. Care giving has given me a glimpse into what a parent endures, and I just don't think I can take it.


3) NO DATING ... until


It's just too hard. With two jobs and trying to see Dad a few times a week and trying to squeeze in something like rest, it's just too much. Besides, it's not fair to ask a suitor to take on that extra baggage. I've yet to meet anyone who has truly been able to understand my plight. They usually tire of my less-than-pleasant demeanor and just being too tired to go out and do things, so I'll stick to four-legged companions.


Typing this makes me angry and sad. A comparison of epitaphs...


Here lies DAD: Lived a full live until a debilitating illness in his 80's.


Here lies Tinyblu: Devoted, angry spinster with lots of cats that died from stress related illness before 50...


Who's looks better? I'm NOT having a good day...

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Yes, it has affected my future. I'm currently finishing my second Bachelor's (I will be done in May) and have begun job hunting. My potential work needs to be within x amount of miles and certain days/hours in order to continue taking care of my grandmother.
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Oh, tinyblu, my heart goes out to you. My situation is less wrenching than yours, yet I think we caregivers all make sacrifices that rip away at our lives. I hope you enjoy your cats! Lots of them.

For me the most telling is putting off needed surgery. I kept thinking FIL might die, or his children would decide he needed a NH (he's beyond AL, so lives with us), so I put off getting my knees replaced.

I have told my sons that they are NOT to bring me into their homes to care for me. I want them to find a nice facility, near one of them, where I will be comfy and cared for. Under no circumstances are they to have me move in.

I am taking more steps to make sure I will have the finances to support the above directive.

I have made clear I want no extraordinary measures, either, should I suffer dementia. Quality of life does matter.
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This ride has definitely altered my plans.

Where I used to tell the kids that I was going to live with one of them when I got old. I now know that I never want to do that to my kids and especially my grandkids.

I am hoping to be financially stable enough to live out my final time being cared for by strangers.

I plan to be a good mother so that my kids WANT to visit me, not visit out of obligation

And I plan to allow my body to die before my mind does. No heroic attempts to keep me going. No life prolonging treatments once I suffer mental decline.

I do plan on having a lot of cats, though.
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