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I have been the primary caregiver to both my mother and father. But, it was my mother's array of ilnesses that caught my attention. She has arthritis, high blood pressure, type 2 diabetes, incontinence, démentia, osteoporosis, heart disease, poor balance, and now is not ambulatory because of a broken hip, a broken fémur and a sub-capital fracture of the femur. She has been in nursing home care for 3 years. In my mind, I believe that most of this did not need to happen. My mother was a person who never made any effort to exercise. She was mostly sedentary. She was a homemaker and also worked outside the home when my brother and I were teenagers. She was an excellent cook and had a gréât appetite. She was not able to control her weight and eventually reached over 220 pounds. I believe in my heart that some lifestyle changes during her adulthood could have prevented some of her illnesses. Witnessing what happened to her has been both a heartbreak and an éducation for me. To cope with the grief and sadness of dealing with her illnesses, multiple hospitalizations, pain, discomfort, and loss of independence, I decided to make changes in my own life. One of the best décisions I made was to join a community group fitness program. I typically exercice for 45 minutes a day in a class with other seniors under the supervision of a group fitness instructor who is aware of the limitations and the goals of people like me who want to maintain our health. Even though my mother's nursing home is an hour away from where I live, I continue to visit her at least 3 times per week. I continue to wash and iron her clothing. I take care of her financial and médical correspondance. I volunteer once or twice a month as a docent at a muséum and I continue my éducation and life-long learning by taking one graduate class per semester at a local university. I am trying hard to fight dépression, grief, and sadness by keeping myself busy and by keeping my mind occupied with positive thoughts. My mother is 91 and is continuing to décline. I do my best to advocate for her and to see that she receives proper care. I truly believe that I am doing all that I can for her, but also believe that I have to fight to maintain my own life. On a daily basis thèse choices are not always easy. I am 68 years old and I just adopted a "rescue dog". He keeps me busy too! And in moments when I'm feeling very sad, he seems to find a way to entertain me. There are some days that I think he helps me more than I help him. I'm writing all of this to tell everyone that caregiving does not need to completely take over your life. I urge everyone to try to find balance. Although you may feel like you are being selfish, you must also take care of the caregiver. Please find your way to do that - as I have done for myself. It will help you to take care of yourself and it will help you deal with the ressentment that we sometimes feel when the demands put on us are unrelenting and there seems to be no relief in sight. I have made my peace with this. I know that my mother will not recover from her illnesses. But I also know that I have been kind to her, and dévoted, and that she is reasonably comfortable and happy despite this difficult situation. I have learned a lot about caring for the elderly. Maybe this is my mother's last lesson to me. I was raised to know to do the right thing, whether you feel like it or not. I feel like I am doing that. At the same time I know that I have to live my life as well. I hope that all of you will find your ways to take care of your parents but also take care of yourselves too. Of course, every situation is different but you can find your way.

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Well, if she made 91, she exceeded her life expectancy by at least 10 years. So she must have lived a somewhat healthy lifestyle or really good genes. Celebrate that. A nursing home is better than a homeless shelter; far more women get to a nursing home than men do. Celebrate that. Give yourself credit for all you have done! Next time you sign in at the nursing home, notice how many others have had visitors. Maybe ten percent. Yep, you are in the top ten percent of caring children. Good show!
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Dear Cinderella, Thank you for sharing your experience with all of us. I sympathize and empathize with so much of what you are saying. I am glad you have found the right balance. Its certainly not easy. I never did. And you are right the resentment and anger can be overwhelming. And now that my dad has passed, I wished so badly I could have found the right balance. I think I would have been a better caregiver if I had. Instead my dad passed and we never got to say what really matters.
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What a beautiful gift of experience to share with others. Have you considered writing a memoir surrounding this as a beacon of hope and strength for others finding themselves in this position?

Anticipatory grief is very real. We have this front row seat as to our own mortality as we watch our elders go before us. It can unsettle the balance for sure. But you have turned this bittersweet occasion into a positive experience and from it, clearly found strength and hope through concerted efforts to change your perspective - and not get bogged down into the pit of despair that is easy to do in this situation.

Thank you
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Cinderella, I knew what you were meaning when you talked about her lifestyle choices. A person may live a long life, but the last years can be in poor health. My mother was morbidly obese until she was dxed with diabetes. She also took sedatives her whole life that probably didn't improve her cognition late in life. I do think there is a lot we can do to help ourselves live healthier -- keep stress low, get good exercise, eat well, drink plenty of water, and share time with good friends. I only do two of those things and I'm starting to feel the effects of being out of balance. I don't care if I live long. I just want to feel as good as possible while I'm still alive.
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Okay, I am listening. Heard you loud and clear! Thank you for sharing.
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I hear you loud and clear. But try to keep in mind that we all are human. We all fail in many ways. There really is no way to guarantee that we will be healthy to the end. From the moment we are born we have an expiration date. Try to remember happier times. In being forgiving of your mothers weaknesses, you just might find acceptance of yourself. Try not to buy totally into the"you are in control of your own destiny" philosophy that is popular. It is only partly true. Do what you can to stay healthy while realizing that it just might not be enough. And try to realize that your mom did not choose to be elderly and a burden for you. This Christmas, please accept the joy and peace of the coming of the Christ child. He is the missing link we all search for.
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Cinderella you are awesome! My husband has diabetes n ALS for 3 years. I have my 4 yr old granddaughter whenever I can because she brings much joy into our lives. She's a sweet handful but keeps me out of my deep depression when she's here. I'm also taking pictures n video clips of her n pawpaw ( my husband). He's declining at a steady pace as ALS always does. And I make my husband creative handmade cards which he surrounds them around his sitting area. This cheers him up n that makes me happy. I pretty much stay at home as we don't have a caretaker yet. Since I don't have help, I stay busy cleaning n cooking healthy meals. And I try to go outside everyday for a few minutes for a quiet moment. To stop n think n cry as I dont do this in front of my husband. My husband is 54 and I'm 58. Been married 26 yrs. and I'm thankful for everyday I have with him.
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Good morning all I have missed being on site. This is my story Cinderella except my mom is 74. I am 52. I have decided to put the oxygen mask on myself first this year coming in 2017. At times I have felt hopeless but now I am working with a life coach and am gaining momentum. I love my mom but she has chosen to be confined to her recliner chair and years of immobility having taken there toll. She has many health issues. Her choices have cost her dearly. She has motivated me to care for myself. I am grateful for this site to express our experiences. As we selflessly care for another let's selfish ly care for ourselves or we will be of no good to anyone. Love to all.
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Cinderella5001 Thank you so very much for your post. I am feeling so much anticipatory grief as Scaretaker said that I worry it is ruining what time I have with my mom. I am angry at her and I don't want to be. Mom is 89 and 83 pounds. Her dementia is stealing the mother I had. Some days I want it to be over and some days I make plans for her care so she will ... I don't know how to finish that sentence. What do I want? Her to be healthier? Live longer? Appreciate me? Stop being so passive aggressive? Stop thinking my worthless do nothing, money sucking brother is wonderful?
So since I have no answers ... I exercise. I long distance speed walk, take Buda Khi (martial art type cardio), Kettle Bells (weight training), and Zumba. I work out on my own weight station at home. I only mention this is to show I must have time to myself and for myself. On weeks I miss class I feel resentful and crabby. My husband would like me to talk to a counselor but finding this site I get insight to what others are going through and how very fortunate I am with my mom's health issues. Other than an occasional accident my mom takes care of her diarrhea. I do her cleaning and spa days. My husband is her cook. My mom has celiac.
My daughter comes 1 or 2 days a week to play scrabble or other activities to help her mentally active. Mom does virtually nothing but sit and watch birds. She tries to crochet but her arthritis is bad. She talks on the phone almost every night to my brother for 1 to 8 minutes. He is a jerk. That is the extent of his care. He won't even come see her. Just enough contact so he can get money. She gives him an allowance still and he is 58. I have stopped the majority of his mooching except for this last problem.
Somehow I thought this time taking care of mom would be different. I knew it would be me since my sister died early from not taking care of herself and my brother being who he is.
I just thought she would be more part of the family unit instead if sitting in her chair and talking on the phone. I thought I would be this loving, patient daughter who would not ony honor her mother, but be proud of all I do for her. Instead I am a crab and don't want to do this anymore. I will take care of my mom ... I'm just scared of the future. Thank you for this opportunity to vent. If anyone would like to give me a kick I'd appreciate it. (Smile)
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Cinderella, you sent us an extremely well-written, positive and helpful post. I thank you. I understand how you feel as I am caretaking for my husband who is completely disabled. I do everything for him except feed him. He is awake for about 3 hours during the daytime. He micromanages my life, and for all intents, I have ceased to exist. After seeing five neurologists, no diagnoses was ever given and the only prognosis was "face the fact that he will have to go into skilled care," which is NOT ok with him.

When my new health insurance kicks in in January, I plan to get help by seeing a behavioral counselor. Thank you for the much needed kick in the behind! ❤
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Thank you Cinderella-A great holiday post that we all needed to read. I am 59 and my mom is 81 and in the later stages of ALZ and has lived with me the past 3 1/2 years and still does live with me. You learn so many life lessons in the ALZ journey. If only we could learn those lessons earlier in life and LISTEN to them, as I'm sure everyone would agree. 2 years into my mom living with me I realized I had to take care of myself: mind, body and spirit. And I have been very successful with doing just that in 2016 and will continue in 2017. Shower time is my time to cry and reflect. I realize that I have to allow myself to feel and acknowledge those feelings such as regret, anger, frustration, what more can I do syndrome, and the list goes on. I have done more reading in the past year than I have done my entire life, and it feels awesome! I decided to continue to grow personally as well. I am in a much better place because of those actions to take care of myself. My mom is far better off because of it as well :) I grab an hour here, half hour here, etc. Every little bit of time makes a difference. Animals are such great companions and sources of compassion. They provide an abundance of unconditional love. Great idea and a rescue animal to boot, that is awesome. Keep on taking care of yourself. Have a wonderful and safe holiday.
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I think we ALL try to make new resolves in a new year. I honestly didn't think we'd even have mother this long--so I get the "anticipatory grief" concept. Also, daddy died on New Year's Day--45 minutes into the "day" as it were, (12 years ago) and so I find my anxiety climbing during the holidays.
So much to do, it's all on me--hubby doesn't "do" holidays--so I am charge of the inlaws, 13 grandkids, neighbors, plus handling sub for Santas, whatever comes down the pike. I did resolve to have ALL "family Christmas" done by Nov. 30th and I did. This alone has made Dec. much more pleasant.
My resolve has been to keep on in therapy and get off antidepressants if possible. Keeping active has been really hard, 2 major back surgeries, foot surgery have seriously hampered me. And can't we always lose weight?
My mother is 87--and could live for 10 more years. She's been on her deathbed too many times to count. I feel like I am holding my breath--I don't want her to die, but she is truly now old, bent in half with age and unhappy. Her only outlet is one or two days a week at Bingo. Her last "driving friend" will lose her license soon (macular degeneration) and mother will lean more heavily on me to take her places. And I can't life or move her.
My goal is just to become healthier in mind and body, but know I am limited as to what I realistically will accomplish. Genetically, I'll live into my 90's and I don't want to! But I want to live happy and as healthy as possible and I DO NOT WANT TO BURDEN MY KIDS!
I'm going to make some new friends, I hope, find us our "retirement" house and travel a little.
I never actually make a list of resolutions--but perhaps I'll make myself a little journal with these "hopes". And be flexible, because despite our best intentions, life gets in the way of living :)
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Balance in the caregiving role is so very important, but easier said then done. My mom has gotten worse over last 8 weeks, and diagnosed with lung disease. They want her on 10L oxygen 24\7. Her mobility is awful, and its all on me. Which i want to be the one to take care of her, but its become so much and lately i feel the effects on my own health. She didnt choose this outcome, and i keep in mind that its alot worse for her. No one wants to lose thier independence, especially my mom. Always been a total go-getter. Its a difficult time, and watching my mom wither away little by little kills a piece of me every single day.
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I have. Mom has had Alz for 10 years. The last 5 have been really crushing, between her decline and dealing with the nursing home, I have put on 50 POUNDS!

Yes, my choices. Eating late because I was busy. Eating garbage because it comforted me and I was too tired to cook and didn't have time to go to the grocery store. And frankly, too consumed with grief over my mother to care about the affect this would have on me.

Now, at 43, I'm well over 200 pounds (thankfully tall, so somehow still squeezing into a size 12), my knees hurt, my hips hurt, my ankles hurt. I actually sprained my knee climbing to the flatbed of my truck because the weight on the knee was too much!

I've got to stop. I think of my precious mother, elegant, beautiful, brave, never overweight. She wouldn't want me destroying my health for her. So I'm going to give weightwatchers a(nother) try.
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My mother is 84 and is declining much more rapidly than she should be - both mentally and physically. And I resent her for it because she has done nothing to stave off the decline. She used to joke "I'm allergic to exercise" and now, she can barely get out of her chair to get herself to the bathroom - and it is a lift recliner. She refuses to do anything to improve her cognition. No hobbies, no puzzles, no reading etc. She just naps as much as possible.
So, when I am especially frustrated and short wither, she will say "you will get old one day" and I think to myself "not if I can help it". I tell her, this is why I go to the gym. So that my kids are hopefully never in this position.

I am trying to keep myself young and in shape for myself, my kids and my future grandkids.
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I have to agree with commenter #1 .... also you don't mention your mothers height, medications she's been on that may or may not have made her bones weak, may or may not have been on or "are" causing imbalance .. etc etc. you also don't mention how many "births she's experienced (one large and main reason for the incontanence) .... for instance, my mother a mother of 4 (4 vaginal births and has extreme inconstance) .. anyway, when I walked back into her life she was checking out.. meaning no longer wanted to live.. she has extreme nausea, 100% sedate, she was on 14 medications which 13 more unnecessary she was heavily overmedicated at the time when I came back into her life. Actually several medications were causing symptoms from other medications mixing with causing imbalance causing dizziness causing water weight gain causing weight gain etc.… My mother stands 4 foot 11, when I came back into her life she was 232 pounds. It took one year, involving my pushing her to live again ... I started by firing three of her physicians and then the weaning down of several medications took place … Her weight reduced to 114 pounds which was correct for her body structure. she no longer had diabetes, she no longer had high blood pressure, etc etc. Body structure/ bone structure, medication history etc. all has everything to do with the physical being and it's ability to maintain strength and durability. Like your mother, my mother also experienced several bone breaks etc. before the changes took place, she had been prescribed prednisone for the last 10 years (which deteriorates bone density).... i was able to get her physical health turned around, then her mental health took over, she's now 76 and has short term memory loss and dementia (the signs were already beginning before her physical transformation, it's just very disappointing to have it happen, for her, and me. Your mother is 91 ... 91 alive and still living, sounds to me she's done pretty good. And as far as you saying that caregiving does not have to take over your life… The only thing I have to say to that is, and this comes from a full-time physical, financial, and other, caregiver (I am one of 4, the other three are worthless and turned their backs) for my mother… All I have to say to that is even prisoners can find a place to where they are "ok. But other than that... I have nothing to say.
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Sorry to hear. Here's my professional opinion (retired family therapist, retired minister). Sounds like you're trying to distract yourself from the pain of what's past, what's happening now, and the eventual death of your mother. I'd drop some activities and join a caregiver's support group. Good it, you'll find one. (Voice of experience.) Or you could get individual therapy. Everything you're trying to distract yourself with by all your activities is painful, and at some point you'll need to confront the pain and deal with it. I guarantee your life will improve immeasurably.
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Cindarella, I mean Google it, not good it.
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revclaus, I agree in a way. But when you are living it, you have to get out of it sometimes. We do not want to wallow in it every day for years. I've been with my mother 7 years now. She has been in poor shape for all that time. People have to continue living even when a loved one is dying. Each person will face their own end times. Each person will die. Caregivers are not required to die with their father, then their mother, and then for themselves. Dropping everything and engaging in the pain for years sounds like a terrible idea to me. Sorry to be so contrary, but I have been living the reality of it for a long time and would be in total depression if I did what you recommend. I'm already crazy; I don't need to add depressed onto that. Daily exercise is wonderful for caregivers.
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Thank you for opening up this dialog. I have a different spin on this. I have been the caregiver for my loving husband for 6 yrs now. In the last 6 months he has been in and out of the hospital and rehab with aspirational pneumonia several times. This has lead to his need for a hospital bed to make it easier on him and me. I did not need or feel the need to "get help". Before this, he was able to walk and enjoyed our outings. We did errands, went for lunches, but no more. These last few months have showed me that I can not survive without help in our home. I can not leave him, and when medications need to be picked up, or a needed item at the store that does not deliver, I had no resources. I finally hired Visiting Angels for 3 hours twice a week. Affordable, and I found my freedom to do what needed to be done for myself and my husband! Our path is not easy, but with this source of sharing , we will make it !! God Bless!! and Merry Christmas!
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Hi to Everyone who responded to my original post....My caregiving journey has been long and continues to be difficult at times. For those of you who sense that I am complaining, that was not my purpose. I was trying to explain how difficult it has been to recover my own life or something like a life. To maintain my sensé of living my own life I have to make difficult choices every day. I sometimes feel ashamed and selfish if I'm doing something that I enjoy like going to a movie, or going to my bowling league. No matter what I'm doing, I often feel as though I should be at the nursing home making sure that my mother is actually receving the care that she is paying for. This all started when I was about 50 years old. I'm 68 now. In my early 50s my father started to develop démentia. I used to visit with him on Friday evening so that my mother could go to bingo and have some social time to herself without having to worry about my dad. I enjoyed the time spent with my father. We would have dinner at home and watch TV or we would go out to eat and then go to a movie. We enjoyed ourselves and it made me happy to give my mother a break too. My father's démentia caused him to have behavioral issues like wandering and insomnia. My mother tried but was not able to cope with the situation and so we had to move my father to résidential care. His général health was not too bad. He was ambulatory. Nevertheless, my mother was overwhelmed with his care. Even though I stayed with them 5 days a week, this was not enough support. He remained in nursing home care and hospital care on and off for about 3 years. I can't even begin to explain how emotionally crushing this was for me. My father was a very good man, a hard worker, an excellent provider, a kind and loving person. It was heartbreaking to see him suffer. He has been gone for 11 years. I will never get over the fact that we had to put him in institutional care. After he passed, I continued to "live with" my mother five days a week. All this time, I still maintained my own home but only lived there from Friday night until Sunday evening. I could not just abandon my mother. At that time she was still driving and could take care of herself well enough. Some of you may understand that when you become "the assisted living component" for your parents, your time is no longer your own. It goes well beyond running a few errands, providing transportation to médical visits, and helping with grocery shopping. At that time I was also fully employed as a high school teacher. Going to work every day was sometimes a respite from being a full-time caregiver to my parents. Over the past 18 years I have sacrificed a lot. Yes, my parents certainly did a lot for me. Nevertheless, I have to force myself every day to regain balance in my life. I have to take responsibility for myself just as much as I have taken responsibility for the people I love. I have to make room for myself in my life. I have to keep myself on my list of "things to do". When my mother is gone, I want to be able to look back and say things like: I did all that I could do. I took care of her in a proper and respectful way. I took care of her in a loving and kind way. I did everything to the best of my ability. For those of you who are giving care to someone, you know that there is plenty of sadness, anxiety, and grief involved in this process. No matter how much you do, in your heart, you always wish you could have done more or could have done something better. At some point, the caregiver has to forgive herself for some things and remember to pray for continued health, strengh and the courage to face whatever happens every day. At this point I am doing my best for my mother and also for myself to create as "normal" a life as I can for myself in thèse circumstances. My greatest hope is that she somehow knows or will know that I did not abandon her and that I did my very best for her. And for all of you who are caregivers to someone you love, I also spray for your strength, health and wisdom to make the important décisions that will keep your loved ones and yourselves protected, well, and peaceful.
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.... hi... listen, I for one didn't think you were complaining, and so what if you were, but you weren't.. I don't know you, don't know how old you are, don't know if you've been married, kids, or not... but to take from what you've written, first, your mom being 91 has been taken 'care of by you very well, and yes her genetics play a large part in her longevity, but she's still alive, which means both she and you' have done well and you cannot deny that. About your dad, and now your moms present state, logistically and health ... she' by what I hearing needs the 24/7 care (similar to what my mother will be when she gets placed here shortly) ... but this is really about you... about you trying to find 'you again. I think you need to understand that Releasing guilt, what ever guilt you have beit valid or not, is tough to do. And it sounds as if yours is not valid..it's simply tied to deep emotional "feelings of love and commitment that years of caring brings along with it's connections to two human beings in your life. When I used the 'even a prisoner can find a place in their mind to be "ok" example.. to me, not only does that express what I feel I am, but I believe that actually fits you. I'll tell you why; when a person spends 75% of their life taking care of someone your life is built around those or that individual… It is a smaller "space in which your mind and heart and time revolves around… So regaining your life is going to be hard, but not impossible in any way … Meaning your personal life about you, creating who you actually were meant to be independent (as you state you were a teacher) Will be difficult as you are and have been finding out. It's almost as if you are just now starting your life, as if your teaching years were another you, it's not, it's all you... do you have any idea how strong an individual must be to actually care 100% for another? I don't think you know, but you need to understand that not every human is "created to be strong enough to even begin to handle such a daunting day in day out situation, you need to perhaps start by giving yourself some credit for what you as a person have actually done for those two people in your life. Which is why I said like a prisoner because once they are released (one you now find that you are again facing the world pretty much on your own terms) they have to re-enter society… Re-enter the entire natural freedom of independence of "time and choices, and the whole "what do I do, now and next. Whereas when you were caring for your parents you created a schedule and a very tight one and had things in order day today by day probably hour to hour for years on end. And now because your mom has been in assisted-living (3 years you say) … You are still her life Cordinator you are still caring for her but you now have far more time to yourself that you are finding difficult to fill, perhaps. At least that's what I am taking from what you are writing. Actually, number one and first you should be honored for giving up a main part of your life, and I don't mean that lightly, and then secondly you need to be told and convinced how brave you are because you are starting your life over, while still maintaining hers to a degree.
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.... you can do this,you can go out there and find the beauty that there is in this world.. you've done your "time ... now live yours.
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..and I need to throw in .. "mom2mom" ...enjoyed your candid and 'real writing. (And I totally get it, very similar things I have going on here) -
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JessieBell, I'm 76 and went through this both with my mother and with my husband. A caregivers group was crucial when it was my mother, and therapy crucial when it was my husband. Facing the pain, working out through relieves the excessive depression and helps that "I'm the only one going through this" feeling. Glad you've found your own way. But I was really speaking to Cinderella.
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Cinderella5001 - Yes, I am another one who is learning to take care of myself as well as I can. Back in the 1990's my stress was worse, as I was caring for a husband with cancer. I was also working full time because he was under my health insurance. He wouldn't apply for disability and Medicare till it was obvious to him. At that time I also took care of my health on all levels, because there was no alternative, and I accepted that.
I have not done as well this time around, till I heard others and began to reclaim my own life. I am happily returned from a week on the other coast to be with one son and his wife. My other son visited here last summer. What treats!

Time with family and away from home is a necessity for me. I took alone time to write out a do-able plan of health for myself. If I slip up, I will be kind to myself and keep at it. Be good to yourself as well. Thanks for writing.
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Thank you for posting this Cinderella! My mom is a very sedentary 84 yo with dementia and CHF. She doesn't even try anymore. When she gets over-stressed (by over-thinking) I become the "evil one" to her. Of course, my brother is the 'saint'. I am with her 24/7 with no outside help. Today was so hard as she became nasty to me & I'm doing the best I can to care for her and also host Christmas dinner this year. I really needed to read what you wrote, and hopefully will make some changes to my life here now. I do put other's needs before my own, and that isn't fair....I feel I'm just treading water most days. Again, I needed to read this tonight.
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Hugemom, your husband sounds like mine except we have a diagnosis. I suspect there is a lot of depression going on although I do not know your husbands age. It seems to me he has lost the right to micromanage. It may not be his choice to go into skilled living. That said, ask your doctors about hospice. If he has gotten to the sleeping 20+ hours a day stage, he is probably very depressed or possibly at the end of life. Hospice will provide an aide a few days a week to help with showering and shaving, while you get out for a walk around the block! We take what we can get. Best of luck to you and we all understand what you are going through and how very hard it is. Yeah u too, Cinderella. Good job taking care of yourself. Keep up the good work.
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The "yeah" sounds a little flippant. Not meant to be. Auto correct.
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No happiness, moving forward, doing what I want for this caregiver. My father has advanced FTD and believes nothing is wrong. My brother won't allow me to hire anyone to help with anything although he hasn't lived here in 19 years. I hire people to wash my father against both of their wills. Otherwise, dad's house and my future house (the only place I've lived for 39 years) is falling in to disrepair. My life is on hold while my father is alive. We must sacrifice our lives for our sick parents. Many would say they sacrificed their lives when we were born. The difference is, we grew up (but never moved out in my case as I have been doing all the house and yard work for most of my life). If I had been born beautiful, I would have a husband and children to support me. All I've got is the cats.
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