As if the challenges of being a caregiver weren’t enough, I ended up with a collapsed spine and had emergency back surgery. Of course there is no one to take care of me, and I’m stuck in the hospital waiting for room in a rehab place to be approved. So now I have a serious and debilitating condition and I’m attempting to be my own advocate as well as try and find help for my dog to be cared for and to still be dealing with my mom. I’m on heavy duty narcotics and am weak, out of it and completely dependent on others for my own ADL. This is horrible and I don’t have the energy to sit on the phone on hold nor do I have any documentation to refer to other then my Medicaid card. I am at my wits end. I’m racking up huge bills of my own that will be another cluster fuc&$($ of things to look forward to and I think the stress is going to kill me, If the excruciating pain and physical therapy sessions don’t do it first. Mostly I’m writing this to vent because I feel trapped and scared right now.