Earlier, I explained that I grumble and complain sometimes when it comes to tending to my elder's needs. Sometimes, my other relative notices this and reprimands me for that. I am one of the few caregivers with autism, and the disorder really makes me even more prone to screaming whenever I have to meet my elder's demands.
Sometimes, I compare my attitude to Caillou, the TV cartoon character. I compare my emotions to his in the first season. I heard that most people detest the show because of that. I do too, but when it comes to meeting the grinding demands of my elder, I can't help but relate to him.
Well, I already adjusted my bedtime, and it helped me lots since.
I'm hoping to get a part-time job (I work on a network marketing business, but I have to just to get some more insight and experience by doing just that and I'm unemployed) so I can at least pay for respite care (or at least have relatives stay over at my house for a few days as I take a break from the madness I as a caregiver face). One of the Catholic churches I attended a few times as a child near my house has a caregiver group, and am planning to join it.
But for now, I just joined HappyRambles - here's hoping that it would reframe anger. I bet that it's one of the things that would transition me from giving my elder a "Caillou attitude" to expressing gratitude.
Does anyone out there keep a gratitude journal, online or notebook? How does it help you cope with the daily grind of caregiving?