I retired a month and a half ago after working full-time for 40 years. My mom was diagnosed with lung cancer in January of this year and I have been doing everything for her -- grocery shopping, taking her to treatments/drs appts, laundry, house cleaning, cooking meals, staying with her and taking off from work when she was very ill from treatments. She was still able to live alone until 4 days after I retired, then she became too ill and has now been put on hospice. I begged her to stay at my house, but she doesn't want to leave her home so now I am here 24/7 taking care of her and taking care of her old dog who pees and poops all over the house. I love her so much and she has been a wonderful mom. In the mornings I get up feeling so sad and loving -- in the evenings and at night I feel the same, but every afternoon for about 2-3 hours I get so angry because I want to be in my home. I had to shut down my part-time business/hobby that I loved, leave my husband alone and now I spend my days so bored and lonely that I want to cry -- she is sleeping most of the day. I know that she is dying and I am going to be eaten up with guilt when she does because I go through this angry spell, but I can't seem to stop it! Just wondering if I am an evil person!