I feel so bad today and made a promise to care for my mom who is almost blind totally bedridden and her worst fear is a carehome. I promised I would do my best to keep her home and care for her. Week before last we place a catheter and now I can barely get her on her commode by the bed. I am just worn out and have 5 siblings 2 that drop food or send meals on wheels, and one of those that does nothing but insult or hurt my feeling when she stops by maybe twice a week. Today iit was the dead plant hanger still hanging in the tree from last year, she has no clue how hard this is, I'm the baby and its all been put on me. I try to pray and keep my patience. I change her and barely get her resettled and we have another accident. I just need more support, live in a tiny town and my gets RR social security which puts her about 300 a year over the limit to get nursing help. Such a long story, my husband lives across the street with his 89 year old mom and 2 kids and my two kids just moved down the street as I feel like my siblings feel I owe this for us living here when there is no way she could have taken care of herself the last 4 years. 4 surgeries, crippled with all of the arthritis's and begged me to move home from Texas to Oregon saying she was so lonely she wanted to die. Two siblings are within blocks and one about 2 miles away. Today mom told my oldest sister she me to have the house and the reply was Donna (my second eldest sister) will never let that happen. Money is short and I am on SSD also. My first husband took his life in 2004 and We lost our home. I know, I know poor me, I need help as my attitude is very bad right now and know all that matters is Moms well being. I feel overwhelmed and just want to run away with no wear to go. ..