After 12 years of caring for my mom in our home 24/7 with extremely limited help, I recently went through a major burnout. (a big thank you to Arianna, Carol72156. golfbhard and CrystalBtrfly for being here for me when I've needed it the most).
Its been a very difficult road for me as I've been trying to recoup, and when asked how much longer I thought my mother would be staying with the relatives shes with as I've been trying to heal, I have come to the realization that I dont think I can go back to being a 24/7 caregiver. Its not that my mom doesn't try to do what she can for herself or that shes unpleasant, its just that its a lot of work and it has now proven to take a huge toll on me and my health.
I know that my siblings will never step up to help. I know that my mom is 110% against going into AL or a skilled nursing home, I know that she wants to come home but at the same time I know that I'm not ready yet. I feel guilty beyond belief and am torn. I love her with all my heart and just wish that I could have stayed strong so that my bottom wouldn't have dropped out and the burnout wouldn't have happened, but it did.
What would you do if you were in my shoes?