Before you jump to depression know that I am happy. I feel content and joy. I use to be on the edge of OCD when it came to my house. Everything in its place, everything wiped down. Now, I honestly don't care. I don't care if people see the mess. I don't care that I can barely walk through the house. I am happy doing nothing. I know depression. I use to have depression and took meds, got better, got off meds. I need to care. My house it out of control.