I'm 41 years old, and in the last 10 years I've been my mother's, my MIL, and grandmother's caregiver until each of their deaths. During the time I was taking care of my grandmother I also was taking care of my grandfather who is NOT an easy person to get along with. During the time of my grandmother's care I recieved NO HELP from either of her 2 children, my dad and my aunt. We live in Puerto Rico, expect for my aunt who lives in the states. During my grandmother's care my aunt came to PR once, for what she said was going to be for a month and within the first week she left for her in laws because of my grandfather. During that time I also left the house with my husband because the stress was too much! My grandmother had Alzheimer's and Dementia and wasn't easy to take care of because she was always trying to run away and wouldn't sit for 2 minutes, I don't have enough space to write everything I've gone through with her. Fast forward 4 years later and my grandfather asks if my husband and I can move back in because he doesn't want to be alone, after much hesitation we did, BIG MISTAKE! The first month of us moving back we went through many earthquakes resulting that we had to send my grandfather to his daughter's house because we couldn't have him sleeping in the car, because he has 2 spinal cord surgeries and was in pain and going back into the house was too dangerous if it collapses, so he stayed with her from January until October. During that time, my dad gets real sick and he is diagnosed with mestastic cancer (bone cancer) and now I am his full time caregiver. I am running around to doctors appointments and chemotherapy and daily radiation therapy. My grandfather and aunt would bicker a lot while he was with her, he wanted to come back home because he wasn't happy. I asked to please wait because I am too busy with dad to also be taking care of his things, him and my aunt didn't care and sent him home anyways. Since then I've been extremely stressed out to the point that I am experiencing severe body pains that sends me to bed, depression with suicidal thoughts and my mind is not what it used to be. I cannot control my anger, the crying and my emotions, I am too emotional now. I've asked for help but nobody in the family wants to take in my grandfather, here we have laws if he doesn't want to be put in a home, I cannot obligate him, and guess what, he doesn't want a home. I am too stressed with my dad who is another piece of work, a man who didn't raise me and now I have to take care of him because my sister left at the first sign of my grandmother getting sick. My husband and I pay almost all the bills, we don't ask for money, my GF goes out of his way to always put down my husband whenever he gets the chance and now he cannot take it anymore and wants to move! I hate my life, I have anger issues that I cannot control anymore and I feel left to fend for myself with my family. I haven't worked since 2010 and haven't collected SS because I have to be here for people who I don't want to care for anymore, not even my dad! I am getting sick and there might be a possiblity I have cancer too, getting checked in March. I am so depressed and been thinking of suicide everyday. Sometimes I lose my cool and my husband gets scared, he said that I can easily hurt someone or even poison my family, and I think he's right. All this stress is bring out a personality disorder I never had. What can I do? Can I take my aunt to court and have her take care of her own father because I am already taking care of mine, my husband and both of our health. I'm afraid I can hurt someone or myself and my family doesn't care, as long as it doesn't interfere with their own little world. I've been called selfish many times by my aunt, she never liked me because I was my grandmother's favorite. My GM was my world and I am happy I took care of her, but I don't want to take care of anyone else...HELP!