I am ready to move back to my home. I have no life! Getting depressed. I moved in with my mom 7 months ago. She had a bad UTI infection that altered her memory and early signs of dementia. I hate to say this but I am burnt out. I live and work 30 miles away and drive to and from work daily. She is now 90% better. She is back to her old self.
She has a caregiver M-F from 7-3 and my cousin stays with her until I get home. I find myself rushing to get home daily to relieve my cousin because she is burnt out to. She was coming 5 days a week, but has dropped to 3 days, which I don't blame her because she is just volunteering her time. My daughter lives 30 miles away also, and relieves me on Thursdays so that I can stay at my house at least 1 night. I have a brother that has a developmental disability, therefore, he cannot help me.
Yesterday I told my mom that I miss my home and am ready to go back. She stated that I am to take care of her until she dies; I'm just throwing her away, maybe she should die so I won't have anything to complain about. I tried to explain to her that I have given up everything for her. I want to hang out with my friends, go to church, or just be alone in my home and not have to wait on anyone. I feel bad for feeling this way. I have been crying a lot lately because I feel so isolated. What do I do?