I have been a caretaker in my home for over 5 years. My mother is now at the stage where she needs constant care and can do almost nothing for herself. Even with a paid caretaker to help, I am feeling so overwhelmed that I cannot wait until I go to bed at night. I don't know how to go forward. There is no more energy in me to manage the care, the home care, the medicines and ALL the things that I am doing. My husband and daughter are wonderful people, but they truly don't understand what a bad state I'm in. Their feeling is "snap out of it" or "it's mind over matter..." I am in agony. I love my mother and promised that I wouldn't put her in a home. My father died here at 95 surrounded by the people he loved and who loved him. Now I am afraid that I will be the one who passes away before my mother. It's come to the point that there is nothing that comforts me; I am afraid of everything and I am functioning by sheer will alone. I truly feel that the only thing that keeps me from taking my own life is that there will be no one to take care of my mother. I worry about everything. Nothing seems to be easy. My therapist has prescribed medication and hopefully that will help. Dear God, I don't know what to do. I just want to sleep.