Last night while I was struggling to sleep I came across a quote that said:
"Be kind to past versions of yourself that didn't know what you know now." And I wish I could be but I'm really struggling.
My gran had her first amputation last year in October and then again in February this year, now she's showing signs of dementia but I think it might also be UTI. There's so much I wish I could've done differently and I'm really struggling to see my past efforts as ''The best I could do at the time" I wish I was more nicer and empathetic and did more research and was more diligent and capable, but I guess I was also struggling to make sense of the situation because things were changing for me too.
I'm just trying to take it one day at a time, but I feel so afraid she will die and leave me feeling like I could've done better.
Please share thoughts and strategies that have helped you in those times when feelings of incompetence, failure and just struggling to feel like your best is good enough have creeped in.