My aunt is 76 and has had 2 strokes. I live with her in the house I grew up in. My
mom died when I was 6 and I was raised by my grandma. Both of her sons are dead, she has 1 nice granddaughter and 2 great-grandkids.She recently fell and broke her hip and is in a N. H for rehab.She thinks she may be released in a week or two. I also have medical issues (glaucoma, cerebral palsy, and other neurological disorders I was born with, as well as recent ankle problems requiring possible surgery).She yells at me a lot lately b/c my housework is not as "perfect" as she prefers it and I make a lot of mistakes in performing tasks that she wants. I was never a good cook and she holds that against me b/c she was excellent at it complains that I never paid attention when she tried to teach me (which isn't true). Her granddaughter is PERFECT in everything .She is an E.R. tech and training to be a paramedic. My aunt also babysat her great-grandsons age 1 and 10( and still does with my help). She is currently in a N.H. for rehab.She is progressing and may be released in a couple of weeks. I am frustrated b/c I feel useless and incompetent compared to some other family members. I had to quit my teacher aide job to care for herbut I get disability from my old classroom teacher job, so it wasn't too hard financially, just that I am SO bored during the daytime. How can I be my best for everyone else and still feel good about myself? Sometimes it doesn't seem worth living because I have nothing to show for myself. I haven't done much more than fail at everything I ever attempted. I don't think I am good enough to be anyone's caregiver because I was always told by family that I could never function in the "real world" by myself. I don't really have a social life outside of my church family and a few school/work friends that I still keep up with. I am active in my neighborhood association and act as secretary at the monthly meeting.