I feel abandoned by family and friends.. I know I NEED counseling but cannot afford it. Thought maybe a support group might be next best thing. caregiving for my Alcoholic narcissist mother for the last year and a half has changed me as a person. Hate the person I am becoming , Im full of resentment and just rage lately. She RUINED my childhood. I got out a SIXTEEN and made a wonderful life for myself and now she is ruining my life AGAIN. Shes on a waiting list for an apartment but it could still be 10 months before she goes. don't know how I will survive it .I have never felt more hopeless in my whole life.