Explored a few articles where people had success with 'reframing' their life experiences: (by re-telling painful life events more neutrally).
It's self soothing, helps people to feel better about their lives, & more able to move on.
Since my fears came from childhood, I plan to use this method to calm my anxiety & find a path forward since my mother died.
Not trying to simplify, just 'jump start' my dead-end feeling. Have an intern who will help me for free, also uses EMDR in this process.
I can do some of the work from home!
Gotta do something, (& on a limited budget).
I want to feel better about my mother, & eventually neutralize the scary childhood stuff.