I am 24 years old, looking after my great grandmother (call her P) at home, along with her daughter, who’s my grandmother. P is 95 and has Parkinson’s/dementia. We all live in the same house, all sleep in the same room now too, as P has been bed bound for just over a year and needs constant 24/7 care. She is coming to her end of life stages now, a stage that seems to be going on forever with no end to it.
I had to quit university and now I am unemployed due to taking care of her. I have no social life, P doesn’t go to any respite so it’s constantly my grandma and I taking care of her. During the pandemic, it’s been really tough having to do everything ourselves, other family members were unable to come in and take over, because we were scared of P catching anything.
My grandma is really devoted to giving her mum the best possible time at home, making her feel comfortable. She tries to feed her at least 6-8 times a day, as P doesn’t eat enough.
I am really starting to lose my marbles. I can’t find the motivation to do anything, I’m really starting to resent them both, P and my grandma, for putting my life on hold, but also really do feel it’s my responsibility to look after her, as P brought me up from a young child. I really don’t know how to feel anymore, I’m just exhausted. Anyone feel the same way?