I have been caring for my mother (94) for the past 3 years mostly as she was recovering from a new hip replacement - but over the last month has had an ongoing heart failure issue which had been diagnosed when she had her hip done.
She was again admitted to hospital with breathlessness and edema in both legs and lungs and as a result was sent home with a care package who tend just to her personal hygiene needs. She has over the last week lost interest in eating and drinking and despite having liquid morphine and fentanyl prescribed is in constant pain.
She has a visit twice a week also from the district nurse who actually turned up un announced yesterday as she had been told by another nurse that I looked tired and unwell - she also asked me about getting my mum into a hospice which I did try and discuss with her but she wasn't having any of it.
She has this fixed stare in her eyes during the very few lucid moments and constantly babble unintelligibly in between very long bouts of sleep.
I have tried to give her a small glass of water which she sips very little and I am now so worried that I cannot give her the end of life care (medically) that she so wants.
I look forward to any kind of response as I am on my own and feel rather alone - thanks