My mum had a stroke 8 years ago and she lost one of her vision altogether. She went through depression but later won against it after recovering her mobility through physiotherapy. Due to the side-effects of the medicine for her heart, her kidney function started to fail.
Fast-forward today, her kidney function had decreased dramatically since last year transitioning from stage 4 into stage 5. She had denied dialysis 3-4 years ago and we had opted for palliative care following her will. Yesterday, we received a bad news from the doctor that my mum's kidney function is left with 5% and asked us to prepare for the worst.
I don't know how much time she is left with. I started to question my consciousness whether I had just denied her a chance to prolong her life. Am I doing right?
If your mom is capable of making this decision it is hers.
If she isn't capable, you already know her wishes; please follow them and get her registered in hospice for merciful end of life care.
Spend what time she has left loving her and sharing whatever the moment brings.
I have a young friend that has been getting dialysis for years and I promise you that his 30 something self has no quality of life. (Good news is he is finally up for a kidney) Everything revolves around dialysis and the toll it takes on his body. I honestly think he only does it for his mom :-(
Your mom has had a long life and now it's her season to die. I am so sorry that you are losing your mom, it's not easy, no matter our age.
May The Lord give you grieving mercies, strength and peace to know that you did the very best you could and it was good.
thank you for your kind sharing.
at this point of time, we can only pray to God for the best of everything. (Hugs.)
I am sorry for the loss of your beloved mom too.