I currently visit my mam twice a week and I look forward to it, but lately I'm wishing I could go more. I feel twice a week isn't enough even though my brother goes once a week. Especially today when I left she was teary and it tears me up inside. I just want to pick her up and bring her home with me which I know is unrealistic and I work full time. I wish I could give up work to devote more time to her but then I wouldn't have the money for the fares. She has dementia and I know she is in the right place. It's not a care home as such, it's a little bungalow with 5 residents. Lovely carers but I guess I want to be with her because she knows me the most and she lights up when she sees me. I feel sad when I leave her and it affects me for ages afterwards. How do I deal better with my emotions?