I'm still not getting anywhere with my situation..my patients is fading and my frustration is rising. In no way is my aunt in any danger from me, but what about my health? I've been trying to get her to make some phone calls to find a short term care facility, but it just doesn't happen. I'm way past burn out, but still managing to hold it together somehow. Oct 2016 was when her husband dropped her off at my door. I am alone and the only assistance I get is a provider 4x a week, lucky if I get 45 minutes 2x a week. Physically I'm no longer capable, I'm going to end up 6ft under if something doesn't change real soon.
Its been almost 4 months since I have gotten to get out of this house. My chest is extremely tight all the time and 45% of the time chest pain along with it. I'm having trouble breathing...and a double inguinal hernia in need of repair...I do good to get out of bed on the morning...some days I tend to her and go back to bed with out bothering to do anything for me. I love her to death and I'm trying hard to do what's right, but I'm fighting the urge to simply walk out the door and never return...this is my home and its paid for...but I don't really care. I'm beginning to think the only options are to walk away from everything and never look back or end up with ruptured hernia and toe tag in the morgue...there has got to be a way?