it is not easy. Life hasn't been hard recently (last 6 years) but I am seeing his health decline. I tell myself we will just do what we can and it will be ok. Well, reality sets in and I am seeing that it is quite different now. We will be facing more doctors coming up and the future doesn't look like things can be "fixed" anymore. I am always planning for the future, but it isn't something I want to face. I am sure there is a part of this I haven't gone through and am going to come to face it. The loss of the one you love so much! It isn't soon, I keep telling myself, but you never know. It is so very hard to see the one you love strive with everything they have to just go and visit the kids and grandkids and then go home and it takes a long time to catch a breath. This is hard to watch, and I offer to do something but there isn't anything I can do but be there for him. I focus on my health to keep it good so I can be there for him and not have any issues of me to interrupt it. We have two precious dogs that we love and plus I do get out when I feel like I can to go to church and do some genealogy.