The duality of practicality and ideas.

This evening, I went out to get a full round of groceries on a limited amount of time. My mother thought it would be a good idea to send me at least 26 coupons through a shopping app in an effort to have extra items. However, she didn't understand nor did she ask if this trip would be expensive and expected all of these items to be purchased. During the first half hour of shopping, I began paying attention to the list of coupon items and started putting them into the cart.

Shorlty afterwords, I began realizing that my time was running out as I had litterally an hour and a half to shop and it was already 7:30. I decided to give my mother a call and essentially told her that if I couldn't find a particular item, I couldn't waist a huge amount of time searching for it. She agreed (reluctantly) and told me that she wanted a specific seaweed snack and didn't care if I had really completed the list. Eventually as I'm trudging through the store, history had proved itself once again as the app itself had inevitably failed to load and this had began to seriously eat away at my time. I call once again and automatically she tries to fix it over the phone and expected that since her phone could load it properly mine should do the same. Well the whole idea for the 26 coupons was quickly abandoned when my anger began to bleed through and her dissapoint over the lost seaweed snacks grew (since for whatever reason she didn't want to pay full price even though I had a disscount card.) As I'm running late with this trip, I started thinking that ideas are not always practical and perhaps they have a certain time and place to be shown or heard. As a caregiver, it is a little difficult for me to try to explain this to her and deal with the fleeting amount of unspoken dissapointment or a quick shot of pain as she realizes that she is a woman of ideas and she can't leave her home easily. But with a small touch of positivity, I know that through any ordeal, I still provide the proper necessities that are needed despite how tired, hurt or elated I might be feeling along with learning a lesson towards life and it makes me feel at least one step closer to becomimg wiser.