Good grief. I am so freaking tired. Sad to say I don't want to be home for any length of time due to burn out and not feeling very angelic. I just realized this evening that I can't seem to calm down my inside when in-laws sit on the front porch and do NOTHING and of course there is the illusion that they are waiting for and anticipating something from ME. I was gone most of the day, my kids were with someone else - love that woman - and I am home and my kids are tired and....crying a bunch and I wish the in-laws could just take up reading for a hobby or......something. I need to do a LOT of things but also need to squeeze in some sort of required social time to MAKE them go to as I am SOOOO different from them and feel in a constant depressive state as soon as I get home. Ugh. Where do you go to 'find them friends' when they refuse to go to church with us, refuse every suggestion......and I am thinking - tough. I can not be your social life. My leaving the house for any length of time leaves me exhausted and frustrated. Better go make myself make dinner but am open to suggestions.